Confessions to the Nature of my Surroundings

Thank you for the company
On this lonely, Lonely day
Heart has been cold of the solitude
This soul has been grey

Thank you for the embrace
The windy hellos
The visions of your beauty
Just the fact it’s you being you

Oh, Not many know who I am
But you do
I often wonder what they think
Do they think of me as a fool?

But then as I walk with you
All is alright
I begin to think better thoughts
As I dream amongst the paradise
You comfort me with

Oh, I always feel embarrassed
When I complain
When I think wrong thoughts
As if time was going to end
But there you are always screaming
That all has yet to begin

Oh, How blank these expressions become
As the emptiness tears me inside
Hiding from the world around me
Too nervous to do anything
So I put up walls
Walls the size of mountains

But you keep yelling and yelling
“Stop worrying, conquer your fears
I am with you, I am right by your side”

Deep inside
I cry and I cry and I cry
Battling these fears
Enduring these self defeating days
Hindering on the brink of my unsocial unsettling

Ah, As I walk with you
You do your very best to strengthen me
Making me tougher
For the life I must live

Oh, One day I shall listen clearly
As I learn from the knowledge
Of your nature
My Mother ever so wise

On this day
I feel your embrace

Thank you for the company
I should not feel so alone

But I ask this
If they truly knew me
Would they ever understand
The way you do?

Still, I shall make you proud
Someway, Somehow


Written By,
James Darwin Smith II
4/24/11