Out of Place

Dying right now
In mental decay
Thoughts spinning
In a cycle
Of distant delirium

Don’t want to be seen this way
So I hide away
Keeping myself
From sharing this agony

Pathetic I feel
As I hold this knife of emotions
Trying to kill this mind
Slowly but painfully

Crying inside
But outside everything is just fine
I was always a great actor
In this play called life

I don’t need pity
Just dealing with mine alone is pathetic
Dying to get by
In this hope I wish to encounter

I do have strength
Willpower as well
But it tires me out
Making sadder times ahead
But I still get by

Sorry I am not able to stay
Mingle and do my part
But my mind
Is going too fast
For me to comprehend anything

But this won’t last
And all will be alright
This is nothing
I will soon destroy this for good

But as for now
I am feeling so damn out of place



Jim